a lot had happened

"We're supposed to hide this stuff then, huh?"

This is the only place I'll put the words that I actually wanted to for this.
Which makes me feel defeated because this very same frustration is what inspired this in the first place.
This was not a happy drawing.
I was in a numbed out state of nulled anger and frustration. 
Suicidal really isn't the word for it anymore.
Nihilistic isn't either.
Both maybe?
What ever, who's going to listen anyway.